So I decided I am going to start a 'crushin' on straight boys' series to blog about the straight guys that I 'fell in love' with in middle/high school and what happened. I am trying to find pictures of random guys that at least look like who I'm referring to so that you can at least have an idea of what they looked like. I do have pictures of most of them...but if they ever found this...that would be really embarrassing :-/
So today I was thinking about this, and was feeling really nostalgic and kind of missing high school (crazy, I know). Its been...SEVEN years now since I was in high school, and certainly life is different. I decided to text one of my closest friends (still good friends, just haven't talked to him in a while), and just seeing how he was doing. His name is Eric. I was telling him that I was feeling a bit down, but that it wasn't important, and he responded:
But it is important! You have some terrible self image problems which is surprising; considering that you are one of the kindest, most compassionate, intelligent, and clever people I've met...even if you did vote for Obama! This negativity is something you've created in your mind from watching too much showtime (referring to Queer as Folk).
Considering that I don't believe that I am worthy of such statements, this meant a lot to me. It just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy when someone says stuff like this!
Well anyways that really brightened my day...oooh and I heard from my old (might be new) boss today, and this company is really interested in hiring me! They will even pay back my tuition so I can leave my current company. So- no tuition debt, a nice 10-15% raise, a new shiny title, working with my old mentors... awesome! The only 'bad' thing is that I would have to move to Dallas, TX in about 12 months. Its not really a bad thing, because Memphis is AWFUL. But I hate 'starting over' and having to make new friends, etc.
Ok- its beautiful outside and Im going jogging in the park! I will leave you with a picture of one of my friend's ass. No, its not mine (yet) :-(
[Zune playlist: Bloc Party - Weekend in the City (instrumental) ]
Much Love,
Steve
6 comments:
I am looking forward to this series. :D :D
And that's a lovely ass. XD
Love
x!
it's fairly painful but also cathartic - I've covered a few of mine already but one big one left to go... looking forward to reading!
*sigh* i love a straight friend , also called eric. it's wonderful and depressing all at once. it is real love, he makes me so happy just to be around him. but i die a little more every time i realize we will never be together and that he will never know just how much i care for him.
the new job sounds awesome. and right now, starting over sounds pretty good to me. best of luck! keep us posted. lets talk on msn soon.
its always tough pining away for someone, with love unresolved
gee that sounded sort of poetic
i remember all my crushes, and there were MANY... but sadly not in touch with them much - although they all got pudgy and old looking LOL serves them right j/k
oh ps hope u get the job
I've thought of doing the same. I started crushing on boys in the first grade. Seems like I always teamed up with a best friend guy and we did guys things, but sex never came up, until college buddies. And then it was awkward.
Looking forward to your series.
Post a Comment