So I always thought it would just change things if I told him. Well since he was laid off, he is moving back to Dallas, so I figured its now or never. So on the way back from McDonalds, while still fairly inebriated, I said-- "can we have an awkward conversation for a minute". He said sure, and I then acted like a girl for 10 minutes trying to just spit it out. Its really strange, because I am out to almost all of my friends, and really am not ashamed or anything. I am not really all that concerned with what people think, but at the same time it was just really hard to spit it out. I think I first said (as the tension was mounting) "I am an axe murderer"... it was very awkward. In the end of course he was fine with it, and the next day we were back to normal. So at least its off my chest, and I don't have to worry about him seeing whats on my Netflix queue anymore :-)
You know what the stupidest part of being a 'grown up' is-- yard work. I had to do it as a kid too... but for some reason I just HATE it now. I have owned this house for almost two years, and the first year paid someone to do it. Now I don't want to spend the money, but I don't really want to do it either. If I could find like a 'cute boy' lawnservice, where eighteen year olds would mow and service my lawn shirtless (see picture for ideal worker)-- I would pay big money. I get a lot of flyers for lawn services but they don't have photos with them...so how do I know! I don't care if that makes me sound creepy-- I'm 25, I don't think that's too old to make it creepy just yet, but I am certainly practicing for my elder years :-)
Much Love,
Steve
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Heh. Yeah. I'm trying to figure out how to tell my college and high school friends. Most of my friends here in Texas know now, but my friends from my past don't.
Oh, and it's funny you mention that... I need to go engage in a little landscaping (and manscaping, incidentally) myself.
Hahah I wouldn't mind if boys like that came and cleaned our yard too :D
And yay for telling your friend.
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Awww well done. :)
Maybe it was a bigger deal because your friend was that much closer to you than others?
And yeah i'd let that guy mow my lawn. ;D
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"inebriated McD's coming out" - well, at least it went well, congratulations :)
Creepy, indeed! Ha ha. I still do my own yard work and fool myself it helps me keep the shape of an 18 y/o!
Go on, get out there and dig your veggie patch and grow something!
G =]
Since when does McDonald's serve distilled spirits?
Good for you for telling Matt! I hate the hemming-and-hawing part when coming out to someone and I'm really glad it's behind me now.
We don't seem to have a shirtless 18-year-old lawn service in our neighborhood, either. The lawn service we use for the front yard does have at least one rather handsome (but always fully clothed) employee, on the other hand.
OMG, I thought that was YOU in the pic! How cruel...
Well, maybe you should invite everybody you have flyers from to a "mow-off." Then you can choose the best prospect.
LOL
naturgesetz:
Do you mean "mow off," or "'mo off?"
The former, but you get to decide the winner, and if you take the latter into consideration that's up to you, I suppose.
you once said to me that you don't think you're interesting enough.
well, that's the stuff that makes you interesting. you're opening up.
about the boy: yuuuum
I'd mow your lawn. ;)
Well x!- I'm accepting (photo) applications, but I fear the commute might be a bit long for you :-)
Thanks for the kind words guys! And yes- I don't really recommend the inebriated Micky D's coming out scenario... because not only are you nervous and awkward but your hands are covered in greese and the whole car smells of cheese... so if they have a bad reaction, you don't really know if its you or the food!
Much Love,
Steve
i wish i had the balls to come out to more of my friends, awkward or not...lol. maybe i'm putting it off coz i know they won't accept me, and i can't take losing a friend now, even a shitty one.
ok, i'll make it creepy. 32 is old enough to make it creepy no? i fckn hate yardwork. i would pay HUGE money for the hot 18yo shirtless yard services. have them here 7 times a week. oh, look, a new weed has sprouted up...kindly weed the flower bed plz... maybe if i hadn't been closeted when i was 18, i wouldn't be such a creepo today. yep, a special place in hell is being held for me.
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