Well, wasn't that just a nice thing to say

After reading Daily Dan's past blog entries about his crush on (sort of) straight friend Aaron, it reminded me of my many crushes on straight guys in middle and highschool...and today still, I guess. I guess when you are surrounded by hormone crazy men (i.e. just any men) in highschool you develop crushes on just about anything with a cock and balls :-)

So I decided I am going to start a 'crushin' on straight boys' series to blog about the straight guys that I 'fell in love' with in middle/high school and what happened. I am trying to find pictures of random guys that at least look like who I'm referring to so that you can at least have an idea of what they looked like. I do have pictures of most of them...but if they ever found this...that would be really embarrassing :-/

So today I was thinking about this, and was feeling really nostalgic and kind of missing high school (crazy, I know). Its been...SEVEN years now since I was in high school, and certainly life is different. I decided to text one of my closest friends (still good friends, just haven't talked to him in a while), and just seeing how he was doing. His name is Eric. I was telling him that I was feeling a bit down, but that it wasn't important, and he responded:

But it is important! You have some terrible self image problems which is surprising; considering that you are one of the kindest, most compassionate, intelligent, and clever people I've met...even if you did vote for Obama! This negativity is something you've created in your mind from watching too much showtime (referring to Queer as Folk).

Considering that I don't believe that I am worthy of such statements, this meant a lot to me. It just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy when someone says stuff like this!

Well anyways that really brightened my day...oooh and I heard from my old (might be new) boss today, and this company is really interested in hiring me! They will even pay back my tuition so I can leave my current company. So- no tuition debt, a nice 10-15% raise, a new shiny title, working with my old mentors... awesome! The only 'bad' thing is that I would have to move to Dallas, TX in about 12 months. Its not really a bad thing, because Memphis is AWFUL. But I hate 'starting over' and having to make new friends, etc.



Ok- its beautiful outside and Im going jogging in the park! I will leave you with a picture of one of my friend's ass. No, its not mine (yet) :-(

[Zune playlist: Bloc Party - Weekend in the City (instrumental) ]

Much Love,
Steve

OH MM GE

So I joined a gym today. This is of course my new years resolution (like 50% of the cities population apparently). College, especially the last two years, has a way of making you gain weight. Especially when you do a computer science degree and you are working 18+ hours a day sleeping on couches in the senior lounge, etc. I was always a skinny kid, and I don't really think Im fat now...but definitely could use some personal trainer kicking my ass to get fit. Remember boys and girls: guys don't make passes at boys with fat asses

I picked this gym because its fucking awesome! It has an indoor pool (w/ hot guys), an indoor track (w/ hot guys), racketball, basketball, spin class, and a huge weight room (w/ loads of hot guys).

So I spoke with the personal trainer, and one is this super friendly ripped black girl who I can tell would be a great motivating trainer. The other is this really cute guy named John Homosexual (or something...I don't remember his last name; in fairness its probably not homosexual). I really wanted the girl, just because I feel I relate to girls better, but she only does morning clients. So I get John. Don't get me wrong John is hot and cute and has a degree in kinosyn...something so he clearly knows whats going on; but I don't relate to jock guys well and I think Ill be really awkward and self-conscious around him. Plus working out really puts you in some unflattering positions :-)

None the less its a f'ing meat-tastic smorgesboard of man in there. I'm going to be careful- gym shorts don't hide your intentions too well :-/

Im really excited about it! Can't you tell- I have the enthusiasm of a 14 year old girl getting to meet the Jonas Brothers! (OMG!!!!!) and its reflected in my speech too... a bit odd really. I'll go back to boring, intellectual Steve tomorrow.

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Steve