Things are wonderful :-)

So this was my 'hell week' at work, where I had to resign and try to keep it amicable. I called my manager and resigned, and while he sounded 'defeated', he didn't scream or threaten disloyalty. That afternoon I endured hours of phone calls from various managers trying to offer different 'incentives' for me to stay on board. No thanks, guys!

So as nervous I was about this transition, this week has been one of the best weeks of my life. Person X and I have been growing closer and closer. We are a perfect fit, in every way, for each other-- I truly believe that. Obviously, it's still young in the relationship, but we have been talking/texting everyday...thank god we have unlimited texts :-)

It's so weird-- a month ago, I would've told you that it would be impossible for me to 'fall in love'. The more I think about it, I realize how truly lucky I am for Person X to be in my life. The 'normal' dating scene-- meeting a stranger, doing the dance of social interaction, etc. would never work for me. I think I am too insecure to ever be able to endure such an activity.

This situation is unique in that:

• We've known each other for a while; thus, there is already a basis for trust
• The night we recognized our feelings, there was significant alcohol involved. Thus, we were very open and honest about...well...everything. So a lot of the insecurities that I would normally be trying to hide, I am totally comfortable with discussing, because the relationship began with a whole lot out on the table.
• We both have a consistent goal for where we want the relationship to go. We both want someone to share our life with; we already enjoy even the little, mundane things about our days.

So yea I'm totally in love person X, which is amazing and scary at the same time. Neither of us want to jinx anything by putting too much pressure or expectations, but we both recognize the reality of how comfortable and happy we are so far.

I just can't stop thinking about him. I'm going to have to go back to my 2009, cynical posts, and laugh at how short sighted I was.

Much Love,
Steve